What Do You Choose To Thrive off of?

What you choose to thrive off of or in fact react to, says a lot about how your mental health will be for you now and in the future.  Things happen, like they say "Take the good with the bad"  How much bad are you willing to endure, until you put a stop to the nonsense and dramatics of life.  You can choose to get right in there and go with wherever the drama flows.  OR you can choose to ignore the complaints, the sabotaging, the looks of distaste and go merrily along.  Not everyone are you going to agree with all the time, have the same likes, dislikes, moods, reasoning and way of handling and dealing with things.  Not everyone are you going to like, not everyone is going to like you.  Some people will like not one thing about you, while another person will go to all lengths for you because they do truly fancy you, who you are and what you are about.

What do you do if you are in one heck of a happy mood and someone leaves you with a bitter taste, not that you do not enjoy them or love them and like them even.  The negativity that someone else carries can definatly leave you with that sour taste.  You may still love them, want them to be happy.  How you choose to react will leave them either in a place to turn around their negativity voices, or what one really has to do is to not react to that person.  Don't give that person an audience.  Choose to walk away.  You may care still, but if the drama is causing havoc on your emotions, feelings of self love, if you find then you too are carrying around that toxicity then you really have to withdraw, "Smile and nod is what I always say, turn around walk away, don't let it upset you, enjoy your day"

I know in my Life I have had drama, who hasn't really?  It took me to many years to conquer my upset emotions, my soap opera life, my heavy heart...Did anyone want to listen over and over...when the same thing would happen, then I would complain for months, never solving anything...My negativity was draining, I was attracting draining people as well, unhappy people.  Sure I learned to rid myself of that meri-go-round, that was my choice, I was sick of the bantering, critisising, it really did leave me upset, in the middle of every little drama and wanting to bring others along with me-to my unhealthy state was to me "very selfish". 

There are always going to be issues, problems, concerns, LIFE...None of that ever goes away.  You either succumb to every battle going on within or with the outer part of your world.  OR like I taught myself, overcome, over ride, rise above.  You could be 14, or 44 or 74 if your still complaining about the things you have been complaining about since you were 14 doesn't leave much room for people or yourself let's say to grow.  I call it muddled thinking.  It is to me personally, a waist of my energy.  It is not that I don't have upsetting times.  I use to have them daily, everything was an upset and everything was boiling over and past the boiling point.  No one wanted to listen for very long.  They would much rather see me smiling then with a grimace or frown.  No one wanted to hear how horrible everyday, every minute that I endured through out every second of my life.  Hate begets hate. 

So what do you do when someone is bantering on about toxicity that you want no part of.  The best thing that I have said before is, and do from time to time-simply say "I don't care for that topic, I don't feel that way,  Or simply and to the point-it is really hard on me if I speak or hear things upsetting".  That is really the best way to go, then you will most likely not have to endure the fright of non essential emotion from that person.  You set a boundary, you say what you are willing to talk about and not.  OR another way, ignore, which I do very often...I tend to laugh it off with something so ridiculous, usually nothing to do with the topic at hand and say something very out of the ordinary, which also stops them in their tracks of misery.  Someone will say, OH my goodness did you see that person saying or doing this or that, I tend to come back and say..."OH I had the best roast beef dinner last night, or Did you see the stars shining or OH I bought this great outfit to wear to such and such or even did you see the hockey game?" 

Your feelings are yours, the way you think are of your own mind, how you hold yourself, what you say and do are all up to you. 

I, bottom line have to choose to hear love, enjoy love, think love, create love, be love, enjoy others and every part of my day.  If I do not choose, healing, love, empathy, consideration, gratitude, giving, LIFE, then I personally am putting my life and health at risk.  As hard as it is, I have to enjoy the winter, enjoy the rain, enjoy the damp, enjoy the dark, learn to love something about each and every person I meet, OR I will not be healthy. 

Unfair as it may seem, I have to put my mind of health first- This is life, I love it, I choose to love it and I can not let myself Choose To thrive off of others in any sort of negative way...OR I suffer, and the ones around me suffer.  With mental illness comes healing and learning to heal over and over again- I Must respect that part of myself!  With it it comes learning to allow myself to be happy and not dwell on the trivial things...With mental illness it is hard sometimes to conquer any day, to keep your head held high and above water...I taught myself to hold myself up and proudly.  I know exactly how to be happy and grateful each and every single day without it being a struggle or burden. 

So for me, I choose to thrive off of the Happy and Great and Wonderful instead of the sad, toxicity of a day, the drama of the world-even if merely on the News.  Call it sensitive, My health relies heavily on my thoughts, beliefs and feelings.  I choose to thrive off of love and then do my best to pour that love onto the ones I hold dear, so that love is overflowing in me, us and whomever chooses to love not hate, show kindness not cruelty and so on.  My health is number ONE...without that, there would be nothing else and personally once again...I worked to hard to have a positive mindset to let anyone put a hole in my healthy way of being, reacting, settling and the way I choose to see the world, love the world, the people in it and myself.  Mental health is very personal, upsetting, complicated and confusing.  I choose to have my mental health in tact every day, every step from morning to night.  That is my choosing, to see the world as I see it, so that I can live, be, breath healthy possibly able to lighten any dark situation...I have beaten my Illness, that to me is LOVE...For me a Healthy mind = simply a pure loving heart always.