Unrequited LOVE-The Most Perfect of all LOVES

A LOVE-Unrequited LOVE, if you have had this type of love, you will too know it is the most perfect type of love.  A love that for whatever reason, beyond your control could never be, could never flourish, could never amount to anything, for reasons so different for everyone who has had this type of never flourishing, yet never ending type of love.  It happens to many, someone they meet along the way, maybe even almost begin a life with, yet just when that love is suppose to go to the next level-you are torn apart, never to be with that person, even if both have made attempts to relive the romance, it is in the past and there can be no future.

I have had that picture perfect type of love.  It was not a love at first site, but a romance that was building throughout a couple of years, first as friends, then as a true romance, to an abrupt ending.  An ending, not that we did not love, nor care...BUT because circumstances beyond our control took each of us on a path where we could not look back!  Still though the love is there, maybe a hidden place within your heart, though not a yearning or pining away puppy dog love, just a knowing that you want the VERY BEST for that person, the other wants to see you do well, you never speak nor hear from them, but know that they are living the life that they deserve although with out you. 

I had that love, it was easy, fun, romantic.  Maybe partially because I was very young, not mature enough to have the love grow, we had to part ways.  I was going through times that we could not handle as a maturing couple.  I was in a state of sickness just being diagnosed with Bipolar.  He was on his way to become a Teacher and I was all for that for him.  Me, having to think of my wellness and him having to think of his future-WE simply did not have the time to put into a romance...one where I was in and out of the Hospital needing direction and therapy for my illness.  Him putting years into his future of always striving to become a great Teacher, that neither one of us could hesitate on our path.  I could not put him or our love first-I had to put my health first, He ultimately had to put his future and career first.

We spent Two years together, never arguing, never many disputes, we got along easily, effortlessly.  I have fond memories as I Hope He does as well.  We would spend the weekends being in our early 20s at our parents cottage in the summer months, going skiing in the winter months on day trips and other trips.  We ate out at restaurants, He taught me about culture and how to survive College Life.  There were not many things in our way.  When I became sick, I lost myself completely and really believed I owed it to myself to Love myself first to regain strength and hope for wellness in my future.  Having to say goodbye was difficult! With my failing illness that took Five years to grab a hold of, I had to make time for a proper recovery.  He too had to step aside and allow me to recover.  We made that decision and in a blink of an eye we were OVER, forever.  Although we would gab on the telephone here and there throughout the years, we both knew that we would not be able to regain our love an unrequited of the sorts, that had to be laid to rest.  I found out though that He was happy, His life did turn out, he got everything he wanted, a family and a great Teaching Career.

Me, my life turned out very well also, I worked hard to get my illness back in check and have, I found a career meant just for me, that I am passionate about.  I have a Home, good friends, A great husband (who has no quams about me writing about my lost perfect love) and a baby on the way that we are gearing up for and are so thrilled and excited to have in our life to give love tenderly over the years.  Both of our lives turned out. 

Unrequited Love is a love so perfect, that you have to leave behind...BUT in the same sense, you could not or would not want it any other way.  It is a Love untouched!  To never to be had again.  But a love that you respect and an admiration in the other person; although you know in your heart, you can not be with that person, that that love has surpassed.  With that type of love, the unrequited kind, there is an acceptance, a feeling of knowing it is OK for you too to spend your lives separate and that is OK!  With that love you do not have a feeling of emptiness for not going forth with that romance, or leaving you with a whole in your soul or heart.  There is no missing that person, no wanting to be with that person...IT is just that love that was yours and you were glad of it, respect it so much but still know that it could never be.  You are left though knowing that you were loved and you too still hold a place in their heart.  They too think of you and are glad you are doing well, with or with out them.  There is in this type of love, no drama, no questions, no hurt or feelings of bitterness. 

With this type of love, leaving a great love in the past, because you know you have to do so, a love so true, almost too true though, that it just can not be, accepting that for what it is LOVE!  A love remaining constant over time, knowing that it is OK that this love is not in your cards, that you gave up that love for good reason...A LOVE for yourself.

Unrequited love is the most perfect type of love because it is that untouched.  The love I have for my husband is abundant and grows through the tests of time; one that I would never let go of, or ever waver from.  It is a working romance, a good love, an unconditional love with respect and nurturing through any storm.  Although, I have had this type of unrequited love, I believe it taught me for the first time TO love, to be in love, what love is.  I have that love in the past, behind me, though now I know how to LOVE my husband and partner...AND NEVER LET HIM GO as I would never want to part ways with HIM my husband and partner as we grow and as I have grown into our love together...that nothing can conquer, not even UNREQUITED LOVE!