Along our paths, sometimes when we need courage, help, health, help when we stumble, when we move away from ourselves. The greatest gifts that were given to me was when I was on bended knee praying to the LORD above. I prayed many times for healing of my illness, still do everyday. I knew way back that if I turned to him, he could and would hear me. There was really nothing else I could do but pray. The feelings I was having were awful, dealing with the many bipolar issues. It was bigger then me. I then turned to spirituality since then. Turned my road and path around from that bottom from then on. Since then, healing was given in many respects. I seemed to meet the RIGHT people, who would be there, even in thought, but be there they are. I would stumble on the precious people in my life and know that they are good, they need to be in my life and maybe me in theirs even at such a young age. Still we connect and gladly. There were others who I could NOT do it without. My spiritual adviser, who also is so giving and concerning when there is an issue...non bias, we PRAY together..and all else is forgotten. My therapist, who I not only see at the office, but he continues to make me a priority when needed and giving a phone call at the comfort of my own home, to walk me through any struggle. I have a friend, a doula, for my blessing with our pregnancy, who's wisdom and knowledge, professionalism is key and very helpful. In an instant all of them appeared when on bended knee. In search for more, in search for meaning, friendship, with no conditions we are able to even feed each other with knowledge of spirituality and growth.
Discovering my spiritual adviser was truly heavens sent. I called her because she had some supplements that I could purchase...we got to talking as she took her time with me. I told her and explained last MAY, that I would love along with my husband to conceive. Although she had a supplement for that...she asked if she minded if she PRAYED....and I allowed it. We talked for two hours...months later, and late in life almost 40 yrs old and years of trying...my prayers, our prayers were answered...and I KNEW it was right and true...all is right and true. We prayed for a miracle and were ready to receive...being VERY MINDFUL, knowing that relaxation was key as well and was already set on a healthy path, with food, drink and Dance. I updated her and was she ever pleased.
Prior, my prayers were answered in the years where I use to have difficulty with my illness, now not an issue unless I make it one...met the right counselor for me, the right family doctor who also took me seriously even as a twenty something. Met friends here and there...who stuck, took classes in many things...really the thirst for knowledge was in my writing blood and can not survive happily without my writing bug. That will never dissipate, it is me, who I am, a big part of me. I met my husband again on bended knees, I learned, adjusted, he learned adjusted. Again needing my spiritual counselor I called on bended knees, we had a lot of time spent talking and praying and it was not just helpful. It was joyful, it aided in healing in every sector that needed it. I allowed healing, we all did. In the end of this conversation on bended knees was again a happy ending to a grouling couple of weeks, hurt, upset, commotion no more. Forgiveness was the answer, of myself and more...things were handled just as it was meant, worry diminished. That is why I hold the people in my circle close and hope them to me as well. My doula is a forever constant that I know we will share a bond now and in the future, our baby is on HIS way and so blessed.
You can believe that on bended knees, with what ever is lurking, or hurting, dismaying that HE is the only one on bended knees will hear you, help you, the change within will be deeper and more concise then any other. You may not believe, like I once did...sometimes there just is no other choice but to believe and become restored completely and always on bended knees.
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